Friday, 7 October 2016

Friends or not?

Hello again!

Long time, no see, I know. Instead of writing a long part about why I haven't been blogging for the past... 9 months? I will just get to the point. 

Sometimes I wonder why my friends still talk to me. Because, to be honest, I'm annoying, bossy and, well, me. 
Sadly, I'm the kind of person who, when with friends, will often talk about stuff that no one else cares about, or stuff that does not have any context to what the others have been talking about. I guess that's because I want attention. I'm not a psycologist or anything, so I can't really tell.

The point is, I'm in a group of friends, but I somehow always feel left out (which is stupid cause I'm not, I think...). In this group of friends, we are just a group of different people who (mostly) have some of the same interests, but once again, I'm the weird and annoying one. Even though that might be the case, I still think that I'm friendly to everyone. Just a common trait that I think everyone should have.

Still, it gets hard when the person you try to be friendly towards won't respond. It makes you question if you did something wrong, especially if this person is someone you have known for a long time. You might wonder "where did I go wrong? Did I say something? Is this person mad at me?" but the situation between you is too awkward to ask out loud.
There is so much more I could say about this, but I won't. 

I just don't know what to do, or if I should even care about this issue anymore.

This blogpost was probably very bad, but I can't really bother to edit it.

xoxo Josey